Monday, July 30, 2012

Well, the NY Resolution worked so well...

I'm back, mostly because I need a chance to vent. I'm in the middle of a flare, and I couldn't be more depressed about it if I tried.

I've been off the Enbrel for three months. I stopped because I got pregnant. I hadn't felt as good as I did since being diagnosed. It was wonderful.

Then, we went for a 10 weeks ultrasound to find out the embryo stopped growing at 5 weeks 6 days. I miscarried (involving a stressful trip to the ER) three days later.

That was a month ago yesterday. Yesterday, I gave myself my first Enbrel shot in three months. I'm in so much more pain than I've gotten used to.

It's just not fair sometimes.


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about everything that you are going through. I always try to count my blessings though sometimes that is a lot easier said than done and I have also spent my fair share of time thinking about just how damn UNFAIR RA really is. I obviously can't understand everything you're going through - though I do understand some of it - and I am listening if you need to vent!

    1. So right - it just really is unfair. I know you've been going through a lot lately, especially with breastfeeding, and it helps to know that we're not alone in feeling this way. Thanks for the support!