Monday, July 30, 2012

Well, the NY Resolution worked so well...

I'm back, mostly because I need a chance to vent. I'm in the middle of a flare, and I couldn't be more depressed about it if I tried.

I've been off the Enbrel for three months. I stopped because I got pregnant. I hadn't felt as good as I did since being diagnosed. It was wonderful.

Then, we went for a 10 weeks ultrasound to find out the embryo stopped growing at 5 weeks 6 days. I miscarried (involving a stressful trip to the ER) three days later.

That was a month ago yesterday. Yesterday, I gave myself my first Enbrel shot in three months. I'm in so much more pain than I've gotten used to.

It's just not fair sometimes.

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  1. I'm so sorry to hear about everything that you are going through. I always try to count my blessings though sometimes that is a lot easier said than done and I have also spent my fair share of time thinking about just how damn UNFAIR RA really is. I obviously can't understand everything you're going through - though I do understand some of it - and I am listening if you need to vent!

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    1. So right - it just really is unfair. I know you've been going through a lot lately, especially with breastfeeding, and it helps to know that we're not alone in feeling this way. Thanks for the support!

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